Kai Can't Guard the Chicken Coop... partly because no chickens

I want to apologize for the abrupt stretch of downtime this blog has experienced... in other words, the few days that have gone by without new posts. Shortly after DW went back home, I got my act together and bought a plane ticket. We've been talking for what feels like a very long time about me coming back to live with him, but now it's actually been set and I feel like everything's moving forward again.

The way in which this relates to my lack of recent posting: A couple of days ago I was whacked upside the head with the enormity of actually moving. Not packing a suitcase to live in another country for a few years, not packing a suitcase to stay with a friend for a couple of months, but packing up a very solid portion of my belongings with the intent of being really, truly out of my parents' house. I've been On My Own for around four years (plus living at college for the four before that, whatever that's worth), most of which was spent out of the country. I've made my own money, paid all my living expenses, handled my bank accounts... all that good stuff that goes with being a Responsible Grown-Up. (At least, all the stuff that goes with it in Japan. America is apparently a bit different.) However, during all of that time, most of my things stayed put in the family home. So....... technically I've never done a full-scale Moving Out.

And it's terrifying.

It's not... cripplingly terrifying. But it's daunting and huge and a commitment. And I don't know how much stuff I should leave here and how much of the room I should pack. And I have a four day wedding to go to. And most of the jobs I applied to where DW lives turned me down.

With all of this, I just haven't been able to pull my brain around to writing here. If I can, I'll try for a new entry tonight. If not... well, I imagine the longest I'll be absent here is about a week.

Thank you for your patience and understanding.